So...I'm going to try and keep a blog.

I've always liked the idea of writing a blog. I keep a diary. I have done since the age of about 10. They're awful to read back. I had an obsession with this one boy all the way through secondary school and I wrote down everything he said and did. The thing is...because I was sad enough to write such detailed descriptions of my days, I can remember, with amazing clarity, everything that happened between the ages of 13 and 16. The sad part is that it's the years between 18 and 22 that have been filled with such life changing and personality shaping stuff....and at the moment I can remember everything because it's fresh...but because I never wrote it down I'm going to forget it all when I'm an old lady trying to tell my grandkids about it all......or when I'm a spinster trying to tell my cats...

With a diary there is only one audience member. Yourself. You read it back and you can't help hating yourself for the way you phrased things back then...or the things you did. When you write a blog you're writing it for other people. Then you can make fun of yourself, which is always so much easier to read back. I don't want to be one of those people who advertises that this is out there...I'm not going to link friends to it on facebook...maybe I will one day but I don't intend to. The only people who will read it will be strangers and my boyfriend. In a way that makes me feel like it's pointless to write it but hey!

Last thing..."Being rubbish at this thing called life." is not an "emo" title. It may SEEM that way...but I'm just refering to the fact that I seem incapable of making decisions for myself. When I try to things go wrong. I make crazy decisions that mean I can't settle down and start my life yet...like travelling and dating an American and moving to the wrong place etc. But to be honest...I like that I'm like that. I'm 22. If I was settled and living in a house with a boyfriend and thinking about babies and careers already...I wouldn't half be bored :)

I will take on the 50 day challenge!!!! It goes a little something like THIS:

DAY 1 Introduce yourself / List your likes and dislikes
DAY 2 Make a bulleted list of everything that happened in your day
DAY 3 Your favourite film
DAY 4 A photo of you taken over ten years ago
DAY 5 A letter to an ex
DAY 6 List of what you ate today
DAY 7 A YouTube video you find funny
Day 8 A photo of you taken recently
Day 9 List some of your favourite bloggers
Day 10 A letter to the person you hate most or caused you a lot of pain
Day 11 Share your favorite recipe
Day 12 Post a self-portrait
Day 13 Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 14 A song from your childhood
Day 15 A letter to someone you wish you could meet
Day 16 Provide pictures of 5 celebrity crushes
Day 17 A photo that makes you sad
Day 18 Set or share a goal
Day 19 Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 20 A letter to someone that changed your life
Day 21 Your favourite television program
Day 22 A photo that makes you happy
Day 23 Share one of your current favourite tunes
Day 24 Time to face morph
Day 25 A letter to someone you judged by their first impression
Day 26 Favorite books
Day 27 A talent of yours
Day 28 Favourite places to shop
Day 29 Provide the HEX code of your favorite color
Day 30 A letter to the friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 31 Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 32 A photo you took
Day 33 What you’re craving right now
Day 34 Your favourite quote
Day 35 A letter to your crush
Day 36 Some hobbies of yours
Day 37 A song that you like to dance to
Day 38 A photo of your parent(s)
Day 39 Zodiac sign and do you think it fits your personality
Day 40 A letter to a deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 41 Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 42 Bad habit(s) you have
Day 43 A picture of your favourite place in the world
Day 44 Something that fascinates you and why
Day 45 A letter to yourself a year ago
Day 46 Photos of personal things in your life (pets, family, house, ect.)
Day 47 Birthday wish list
Day 48 A photo of you right now
Day 49 Hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 days
Day 50 A letter to your reflection in the mirror