I'm moving soon. So soon. This time next week I will be in my new bedroom. I'm all kinds of excited about it.....I'll have more freedom, more of a social life...more of a life in general.
So why do I feel so uneasy about it? I mean, I'm definitely ready and it's definitely what I want and what I've been pinning all my hopes on for the last 6 months.
Partly it's down to the sadness of leaving my nephews behind. I desperately want to be part of Reece's life as he goes through secondary school because sometimes I feel like I'm the only person he trusts and talks to. Then there's the little ones. They are at an age where they're really close with me but as soon as I go off for a period of time things may change. Leon will probably forget me like Dylan used to, while Dylan will just be less affectionate.
Mostly though, it's the thought of leaving my Mum. Obviously she wants what's best for me but....I worry about both of them because my Dad needs a lot of care and they argue so often... my Mum is likely to hate living here without me and I feel like that would be my fault.
GAH. How's that for a depressing spin on things!?
On a positive note I got together with Liz, Ben, Jade and Tim last week and had an epic time so...swings and roundabouts :]
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